Life in eternal loop.

A job that is slowly taking pieces of me, slowly bleeding me dry
I've seen enough of inaction, the stillness, the unproductivity to further expand my capabilties

Invested too much on things that does not matter.
Tired of feeling tired and just to repeat everything the next morning. 
Getting sick frequently and gaining an unhealthy eating habit.

I didn't come this far just to come this far  just to go back to square one. 

Is this all there is to the life that I have to live? 
Is there more out there?








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